Aku rindu lah masa aku masih lagi sekolah rendah. Semua benda nak cuba, even mak kata jangan tetap nak buat jugak. Haaaa ingat lagi 11 tahun lepas, mak aku cakap nanti balik sekolah jangan singgah mana-mana, terus balik rumah. Tapi aku degil masa tu, balik sekolah aku ikut kawan-kawan pergi kedai runcit. Tak ingatlah sebab apa aku ikut hahaha. Masa nak pergi tu haaa, entah mana silap aku, aku jatuh basikal.
Ingat jatuh macam biasa, setakat luka ke apa. Tapi masa tu, sumpah aku langsung tak boleh bangun wehh. Nasib baik masa tu ada sepupu aku yang lelaki dekat situ, tolong aku bangun. Terus dia suruh aku balik rumah. Tapi macam mana aku nak balik sedangkan tangan aku sakit nak mati! Aku gagahkan diri kayuh basikal balik rumah tau masa tu. Dah jauh masa tu, aku melalak lah sepanjang nak balik rumah tu. Sampai je rumah apa lagi, kena marah pulak dengan mak.
Patutlah aku rasa tangan sakit sangat-sangat masa tu, rupanya tangan aku patah. Dan aku langsung tak tahu hahaha. Dekat dua minggu lah aku duduk rumah. Semuanya gara-gara kedegilan diri sendiri. Masa tu mak marah pun diam je lah, dah memang salah sendiri kan. Tapi bila ingat kelakar lah. Aku fobia kejap masa tu nak pergi sekolah naik basikal hahahaha. Tapi kejap je, lepastu datang balik perangai degil nak mampus tu.
Ehh tetiba rasa macam dah ter-throwback cerita pulak. Itulah, tengok budak-budak ni teringat pulak zaman aku kecil-kecil dulu. Dulu degil nak mampus perangai aku. Sekarang ni tak sangka dah berlalu lah semuanya. Sebab perangai degil aku tu lah, macam-macam pengajaran yang aku dapat sekarang ni. Sebab perangai degil tu jugak, kenangan masa budak-budak dulu jadi seronok sangat. Rasa rindu je setiap masa.
Dahlah.. nak menangis pulak bila ingat.
Good friends are like stars.
You don't always see them,
but you know they're always there.
Bila bercakap tentang kawan ni, sebenarnya yang penting adalah kualiti persahabatan tu sendiri. Bukannya kuantiti sahabat yang kita ada. Kalau kita susah ataupun senang, dia selalu ada dengan kita. Selalu bagi sokongan dekat kita bila kita jatuh tersungkur dan langsung tak mengeluh dalam membantu kita. Kadang-kadang ada yang bila kita senang ramai yang datang dekat, mengaku kita kawan baik dan macam-macam lagi. Tapi bila susah, batang hidung pun tak nampak.
Untuk ini, aku tersangatlah berterima kasih dengan semua kawan yang sentiasa ada dengan aku tak kira apa pun yang jadi. Walaupun kita jauh tapi, korang selalu ada untuk aku tak kira waktu. Korang tempat aku mengadu kalau aku ada masalah, pendengar setia kepada setiap masalah yang aku hadapi.
Ada masanya, perangai aku memang susah sangat nak dijangka. Dan sebab tu kot ramai je yang tak lama kawan dengan aku. Hahahaha. Tapi tak apa lah asalkan masih ada yang setia dekat sisi aku sebagai sahabat yang terbaik. Pertahankan aku bila mana aku difitnah walaupun tak ada dekat dengan aku dan jauh dari aku.
Mungkin ada sesekali sikap aku yang buat korang terasa. Maaf sangat-sangat. Macam aku cakap, memang aku sendiri tak boleh jangka dengan perangai aku hahaha. Tetap sabar dengan aku walau apa pun yang jadi.
Siapa je yang taknak persahabatan tu kekal untuk selamanya. Dan aku pun berharap benda yang sama dengan korang. Tak keberatan aku katakan yang aku terlalu sayangkan persahabatan kita ni. Kawan memang ramai dan aku tak nafikan langsung benda tu tapi, untuk cari yang akan selalu ada dengan kita waktu susah ataupun senang tersangatlah payah. Selepas keluarga, korang adalah orang yang penting dalam hidup aku.
Aku pernah menangis sebab orang yang anggap kawan baik, tikam aku dari belakang. Aku tak cerita langsung dengan korang pasal ni. Sebab aku tak nak ingat langsung pasal benda ni. Masa ni aku tersangatlah memerlukan korang untuk ada dengan aku. Aku tak kuat nak hadap semua ni. Tapi aku mampu bertahan lagi sebab impian mak dan ayah aku. Sebulan sebelum spm aku kena hadap semua dari segi mental dan fizikal bukan untuk spm je tapi untuk benda ni jugak. Dan aku taknak ingat langsung!
Kesetiaan korang berdua sebagai kawan aku sejak dari dulu buat aku rasa sangat dihargai. Aku tak tahu nak cakap apa lagi tapi terima kasih sangat-sangat. Ingat tak masa aku mengadu dekat korang masa sem 2 dulu? Yang kehadiran aku dekat bilik macam tak dialu-alukan kawan sebilik aku. Dekat korang tempat aku ceritakan semuanya. Sampaikan Azian pun kena sekali dekat twitter, kan? Aku mintak maaf sangat-sangat.
Korang adalah diwajibkan untuk ada disetiap hari-hari bahagia dan penting aku lepasni. Sebab aku nak lalui hari-hari tu semua dengan keluarga aku dan korang berdua. Aku taknak semua tu berlalu tanpa ada korang dekat sisi aku.
Haaa... cakap pasal kahwin? hahahaha. Siapalah antara kita bertiga yang akan kahwin dulu, kan. Kalau tunggu aku, mungkin dalam 5 ataupun 6 tahun lagi. Banyak lagi yang aku nak capai hahaha. Takpe aku lepaskan korang berdua dulu, okay. hahahahaha
Tahun ni kita sambut birthday sama-sama, ya? Tapi tu lah macam susah jugak sebab Azian maybe dah start cuti, aku baru nak start semester bulan 9/10 nanti, Anida pulak? Tapi takpe, semuanya boleh je kan kita uruskan. Apa je yang tak boleh kita buat. Semua benda kita boleh buat.
Dah lah aku pun tak tahu nak tulis apa lagi. Aku berdoa semoga persahabatan kita ni akan kekal hingga ke Jannah, InsyaAllah. Semoga kita sama-sama capai kejayaan yang kita impikan, capai cita-cita kita dan banggakan mak ayah kita dengan apa yang kita buat sekarang ni.
Aku sayang sangat dekat korang.
Assalamualaikum...
I think it is not too late for me to say Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin. It has been a month I didn't post anything on my blog. Seriously, I don't have a time because I'm busy to settling all the things for Hari Raya. Okay, for this post I will write in English version and sorry for my grammatical error because I'm still learning hahaha. I don't have any Hari Raya photo, in case you wonder hehe.
3 month already and I still remember how struggle am I to face the difficult condition between me and my roommates. There's a conflict between me and them and it started when I come back to college after I have a long holiday during study week. I didn't mean to make a bad story about them and tell anything about them. But you know, I felt really stressed at that time because we're having a final exam. What I can tell, they tried to psycho me and make me admit the thing that I didn't make at all. Okay, I don't want to talk about it! It really makes me tired of anything.
I am done with him! I don't want to remember anything about him anymore. Maybe it is difficult for me to forget but, I tried my best to forget about the person who didn't want me slowly. Yes, it takes time but it's okay at least I can forget him. 4 years I'd try my best to make him notice all I have done for him but until now he didn't see it. And okay, I already give up on him. I think it is time for me to think about myself more rather than anybody else that didn't appreciate me.
Before this, I write everything about him on my blog. And now, I deleted all that I've written in this blog one by one. Its nothing that I want to remember anymore. Actually, I'm not the person who easily give up on what I'm doing but this time I just can't. My heart is really turning into pieces whenever I see him. Maybe I can stop here because I don't think to write more about him.
Thanks for all the memory. Thanks because you've made me the stupid person ever while I'm in school. But I don't care about it. Just forget it and I pray for your happiness with the person who does you love.
Bye!
I think it is not too late for me to say Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin. It has been a month I didn't post anything on my blog. Seriously, I don't have a time because I'm busy to settling all the things for Hari Raya. Okay, for this post I will write in English version and sorry for my grammatical error because I'm still learning hahaha. I don't have any Hari Raya photo, in case you wonder hehe.
3 month already and I still remember how struggle am I to face the difficult condition between me and my roommates. There's a conflict between me and them and it started when I come back to college after I have a long holiday during study week. I didn't mean to make a bad story about them and tell anything about them. But you know, I felt really stressed at that time because we're having a final exam. What I can tell, they tried to psycho me and make me admit the thing that I didn't make at all. Okay, I don't want to talk about it! It really makes me tired of anything.
I am done with him! I don't want to remember anything about him anymore. Maybe it is difficult for me to forget but, I tried my best to forget about the person who didn't want me slowly. Yes, it takes time but it's okay at least I can forget him. 4 years I'd try my best to make him notice all I have done for him but until now he didn't see it. And okay, I already give up on him. I think it is time for me to think about myself more rather than anybody else that didn't appreciate me.
Before this, I write everything about him on my blog. And now, I deleted all that I've written in this blog one by one. Its nothing that I want to remember anymore. Actually, I'm not the person who easily give up on what I'm doing but this time I just can't. My heart is really turning into pieces whenever I see him. Maybe I can stop here because I don't think to write more about him.
Thanks for all the memory. Thanks because you've made me the stupid person ever while I'm in school. But I don't care about it. Just forget it and I pray for your happiness with the person who does you love.
Bye!
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