Wahh tak sangka lagi 6 hari nak habis semester ni. Ya Allah macam tak percaya pulak. Tapi nak menghabiskan hari-hari terkahir dekat sini tersangatlah menyeksakan. Kenapa? Selalunya rasa excited ni aku rasa macam tak selesa lah. Aku nak sangat-sangat 6 hari tu berlalu dengan cepat. Sebab dah tak nak dah berdepan dengan segala macam masalah yang boleh menghalang aku daripada belajar dengan tenang.

Apa yang aku lalui sepanjang semester ni banyak bagi pengajaran dekat diri aku. Makin kita dewasa, semakin bermacam benda yang kita kena hadapi dalam hidup ni. Bukan masalah belajar je bila dekat sini. Kita kena berdepan dengan kerenah manusia yang kadang kala menyesakkan kita, sikap sesetengah orang yang suka memandang rendah dekat kemampuan kita dan bermacam lagi lah. Ada yang bermasalah dengan pensyarah tak? Emm maybe ada kot.

Kalau berkenaan dengan pelajaran, ada certain subjek yang bagi aku susah sikit nak catch up. Apa lagi semester ni most of my subject is theory and only 5% on calculation. So, agak susah lah untuk aku get along dengan subjek untuk semester ni. Tapi apa-apa pun kena lah berusaha untuk belajar jugak even susah pada awalnya. *sampai sekarang sangat susah untuk aku study subjek law :(*

Macam semester lepas, batch aku adalah yang terakhir yang akan tinggalkan uitm ni. Memandangkan last paper aku betul-betul tarikh akhir dan petang pulak tu, memang sedih jugak :( yang lain mostly habis paper 3 hari awal dari kitorang. Fakulti lain selalu habis awal kecuali Fakulti Akaun kalau dekat sini. Semester lepas last paper aku paper Statistic, semester ni paper Law. MasyaAllah bila nampak subjek Law tu last paper, nak tak nak kena baca dari awal lah. Boleh bagi tips nak study law?? hehe

Okaylah, aku pun takdelah nak merepek panjang-panjang lagi. Cukuplah sampai sini dulu. Nanti kalau ada masa, InsyaAllah aku akan update lagi. Tapi kali ni untuk cuti semester pulak. Ohh ya, cuti semester Uitm kali ni 5 bulan tau sebab nak selaraskan dengan student degree. So, 5 bulan yang bercuti tu jika di beri keizinan, aku akan update blog selagi mampu yaa.. Lepasni nak spam gambar-gambar sepanjang semester ni. Bye!!!

I know this all begin because of my fault. But at the same time, they also have their own fault and they cannot blame me for what have been happened right now. I have my own reason why I do like this and I don't want anyone to get hurt because I'm still stayed there. Hmm, I think I always think about others feeling but for me? No one cares about me and ends up I all alone to face all of this. I've tried to understand them and always put them in the first place and forget about my feelings, about what I want but still, they blame on what have happened.

This life is so hard. and I almost give up to continue on what I want in my life. There are many challenges that I have to face everyday and this comes from people around me. I think to face people with different characters is so hard. Can i feel what is the 'happy life' for a once? It's okay if I could feel it once and I don't mind as long as I can feel it.

As I grow up, people keep testing my patience. And I still think in my mind, why I can still stand here with my fake smile and act like I'm the happiest person ever. Wow! I also don't know how I can survive when people keep spreading hate to me. My patience also have limits like other but do they think about that? I don't think so. They keep saying that I have to think about their feelings but? Erghh I hate to talk about it. Can I just disappear myself for a while and see who appreciate me while I'm still with them and who doesn't care about me.

I used this as my place to share my feelings, my thought because when I start speak no one will hear me. For this one and a half year, I felt really appreciated with Yana, Arni, Humairah, Intan, Wani and also Hani. They always there for me whenever I feel down and always cheer up my days. Seriously, I don't have anyone here and I only have them in my life. Thank You!